Cold Feet

After working at the same company and living in the same town for 11 years, I’m more attached to my life than I thought.  It’s easy to talk about change, focus on what you don’t like, and dream of better days.  It’s a whole other thing to be sitting in a hotel, 1000 miles away from home, after you just finished an interview and you already know an offer is on it’s way.

I spent yesterday looking at houses with a realtor, learning about neighborhoods and school districts.  About halfway through the tour, panic struck as I had the realization that I may really be moving away from my friends, co-workers, and town that I’ve loved.  In the past 11 years I got married and had 2 kids in that town.  I grew up professionally, changed as an individual, a fulfilled so many wonderful goals.

It’s been a whirlwind of emotions.  I woke up this morning in total peace, like something was new and different and fresh – and my life would be better here.  An hour later, I was in great duress over the idea of coming here – focusing totally on what the town (and job) does not offer that I had hoped for.  Now, once again, I feel at peace with the idea of moving here.

I never had cold feet when I was engaged to my (now) wife. In fact, I’ve never had cold feet in any situation.  Now I need to figure out if my cold feet are a sign that this is not the right decision for me, or if I’m just scared of change.


2 Responses to Cold Feet

  1. Donovan says:

    Just curious what town you used to live in here in Texas. We are currently in McKinney Texas and wanting to retire to either Portland, or Eugene, Oregon. Colorado is always the other choice for us when thinking of where we would like to live.

    • Man, you’re hitting up some old posts here. :) I don’t even remember writing some of these you’ve commented on, but it’s funny to look back at how I was thinking 3 years ago.

      I was in Austin. I’m in CO Springs now.

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